oh my gahhh

i need to go to vietnam. immediately.

this morning, i walked in and had a postcard from my dear friend, valerie dolby, who is still in China. she wrote some stuff and then told me she had a vision of me serving in vietnam. i promptly started crying. then we watched a dvd this year's vietnam team made for potential applicants, and i almost started crying again.

this is so hard. being here is bittersweet. i know its where i'm supposed to be right now. completely. at the same time, i long to be there. the only way i can explain a love for a place that i've never been in the lord.

so, in all seriousness, i really want to make a trip there. i don't know how b/c i'm so poor but i want to go just for a week or something. i know i want to serve there long term, but i want to go just to see it.

ahhhhhhhhh.