the thorn.

i had some realizations today that are just hitting me in the most profound way. so, since i've been out here, my life has been nothing short of amazing, except one thing (which i won't go into). this one thing has constantly forced me on my knees and kept me needing God. without it, i would probably be just as happy as a bird (is that a saying? i don't even like birds). its been something that has been incredibly difficult on me emotionally, and sometimes spiritually. and sometimes my attitude has been anger and bitterness.
but today, i'm thankful. i'm SO thankful that god has kept me needing him.
"To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:7-10)
This verse perfectly describes what i'm feeling right now. Christ's power is made perfect in weakness! God, don't make me strong! Make me weak! I want to know CHRIST and the POWER of His resurrection. I don't want to rely on myself, for anything. So I'm thankful that God, in his grace, has allowed me to show Him strong in my weakness.

God is good.