november.

I just had coffee with a girl who goes to my church. She is so sweet. We have never really had deep discussions, so we shared stories. As I began to tell her my story - my life story, so it was long - i almost wept at what God has done in my life. The first time was when I was telling her when I first started to walk with the Lord. I am so undeserving of His pursuit of me, yet He chose me anyway. Its so beautiful. Then, as I reflected on New York (the first time), feeling called to East Asia, New York (the second time), my year in China/time spent in Thailand, my year in Charlotte, living in Arcadia, not to mention what He has done in me since moving to Simi Valley, i just felt...so overwhelmed. God is so good. I can't believe what He has done in my life, and I'm only 26! If this is what He can do now, I can't even imagine what is to come. I (and perhaps we, depending on who is reading this) serve such an incredible God. I don't understand it. I am such an adultress. I run to other lovers DAILY, when all the while He stands by offering me the true desire of my soul. His love for me makes no sense, but it is true. That i am certain of. While my love may be false and simply a facade, His love in never-changing, always there. It blows me away.

The past 2 months have been so sweet. Having time to fall deeper in love with my Creator has been such a gift. It is only through Him that I have the perspective that I do. I have seen Him do so many crazy things - from providing something as small as a study bible to providing a place where I can live rent-free. I am so undeserving, yet in His graciousness He has given me such things. He truly does know how to give good gifts to His children.