ha.

i was told that i could leave at 4 PM today. had i known that beforehand, i would not have carpooled today HA.

my boss told me i could just read. so i have my bible, total church, and a pen handy :) its quiet and i will (hopefully) not be interrupted.

tomorrow, 3 of my favorite people from charlotte arrive. and we will eat turkey. and don't worry, i won't burn it. i am cooking for 7 people, 5 of them boys. what a hilarious thanksgiving. but it sure does feel like family :)

i really am SO thankful. its really crazy. god has given me so much to be thankful for...its amazing. if i started a list it would be a mile long. but God has been truly good to me. So much has happened over the past year, and I'm so grateful for each step of the journey.

Let the holidays begin :)

my heart feels alive.

i am so thankful.

its crazy. i love my charlotte family. so much. but then, i was talking with a friend, and it just struck me...i need to be grateful. i have been given so much here. i am really, truly loved. and there is no selfishness in it. it is so good and pure and christ-like.

i am so so so thankful. i have amazing people here who do not let me sit in my sin. sure, my friendships are sometimes hard and uncomfortable. but thats what purshes me towards Christ, towards holiness. thats what life is about. to live is christ, to die is gain. i want everything i say and do, and the relationships that i have, to reflect that verse.

god is amazing. i am so in love with him. mmmmmmmm!

dear charlotte,

a letter to charlotte and the amazing people it containted, both past and present.

dear charlotte,
i first want to say, that i'm sorry i hated you that one time. you know, when i lived there? i see how dumb that was. for some reason, you somehow brought the most amazing people ever created and threw them all together for one glorious year. then, we all had to leave. its sad, really. together, we are a big giant group of love, sunshine, and happiness. its so true, charlotte, that you don't know what you have until its gone (sorry, i just couldn't bring myself to type with such poor grammar).

i'm so glad you have an airport, so that i could fly and visit those amazing people. you also have a nice skyline that seems to grow wider and taller each time i visit you. its funny, charlotte. i live in los angeles, where many people come to pursue their dreams. but me? i'd rather be with you, as long as you bring all the amazing people back from their corners - nashville, philadelphia, raleigh, etc. also, your leaves are quite nice this time of year.

charlotte, thank you for letting me live on your crazy streets. i miss them a lot. even the ones that don't make sense.

love,
lindsey


ok, letter done. let me just say, that i miss charlotte so much. its CRAZY to me that i have lived in CA for longer than i lived in charlotte, yet that place (or really those people) still have my heart like no one else. i have not found that here yet. the people here are different - in a good way, but just different. i have never felt so comfortable and free to be myself. gosh, i miss all those people. teddy, chris, hailey, angela, manda, ginny, tim, peter, kelly, joel, staci, audrey...i know i left people off this list, but MAN. i love these people so much. i know my place is here, but my heart is not. i forgot what it was like to be so loved. to not have to fight so hard for my friendships. to not have to constantly be working on them...and just BE. enjoy life. dance like there is no tomorrow, and not care if you look idiotic. i forgot that. i think i've spent too much time trying here.

so, maybe i'll stop. and just be myself. what a novel idea.