goodbye.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
field of dreams.
its a month in to 2010. so far this year, i got a tattoo. my hair is brown again. i'm going to bible college. i bought a little notebook to start writing songs. i'm going to learn to play more than 6 chords on the guitar.
yesterday i watched sufjan steven's film The BQE (you can get it on netflix, too). its not so much a film as a collection of moving images of the area surrounding the brooklyn-queens expressway. there are no words, no plot. the soundtrack is incredible. i thought it was beautiful, and for me, having spent extended periods of time in the city, it really moved me, to the point that i almost started crying. i love, love, LOVE new york. something about it left an impression on my heart almost 8 years ago, and it really hasn't let go.
today i've been thinking about what i love. and why i'm doing things i hate instead. why i settle instead of pursuring my passions. over the past three years, ive become a little bit dead inside, because i've just settled for whats in front of me. i've become gripped by fear of what other people think about me. and that, aside from making me a very confused young lady, HINDERS THE GOSPEL. too often, i rationalize away the passions in my heart, because i don't believe they can be done. i'm afraid to dream.
i'm praying that i would stop settling, for the sake of Jesus, and not my own.
yesterday i watched sufjan steven's film The BQE (you can get it on netflix, too). its not so much a film as a collection of moving images of the area surrounding the brooklyn-queens expressway. there are no words, no plot. the soundtrack is incredible. i thought it was beautiful, and for me, having spent extended periods of time in the city, it really moved me, to the point that i almost started crying. i love, love, LOVE new york. something about it left an impression on my heart almost 8 years ago, and it really hasn't let go.
today i've been thinking about what i love. and why i'm doing things i hate instead. why i settle instead of pursuring my passions. over the past three years, ive become a little bit dead inside, because i've just settled for whats in front of me. i've become gripped by fear of what other people think about me. and that, aside from making me a very confused young lady, HINDERS THE GOSPEL. too often, i rationalize away the passions in my heart, because i don't believe they can be done. i'm afraid to dream.
i'm praying that i would stop settling, for the sake of Jesus, and not my own.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Bible College, Week 1.
Wow. I've been in Bible College for ONE week, and already my butt is being kicked (in the best possible way).
First class was Tuesday morning, and it was a Theology class. This class will cover the topics of Christology, Salvation, and Man/Evil/Sin. One of our assignments each week is to reflect on what we've learned about the gospel that week, and how have we struggled to live that out in our lives. I had something that I've been chewing on, but at the end of class, my professor asked us to share some things we might write about. This guy raised his hand and said "the hope found in the fact that Jesus sustains all things." When I heard that, I almost started weeping in class. We took some time to just be quiet and think about that truth, and it was AWESOME, and eye-opening, to see how I don't really believe that He truly does sustain all things. I've been thinking about that ALL week.
Next, Old Testament Survey, part 2. I know, I never took part 1. But anyway, we went over Job. It was AWESOME. We talked about how Job does not answer WHY suffering happens, but points to the response of the righteous man: know the greatness of God. So beautiful.
Bible Study Methods was Thursday. This class is very foundational, so I have to say I'm least excited about it. I've also audited it, so I am semi-familiar with the content. But I look foward to really learning how to study scripture, and to see how much I don't know.
Last, Old Testament Backgrounds. This class is going to KILL ME, but I am STOKED. We don't really have any papers, but a lot of creative projects. We have to read a TON of history books, make artifacts, eat meals with people from the middle-east...so cool. But my favorite part of this class is that we have to pray every day, for at least ten minutes, and then write a little summary each week about what the Lord has taught us through our times of prayer. I've been doing that for 3 days now, and I have really seen through my prayers how I really am struggling with the truth I learned in Theology (it all comes full circle!)
I am so grateful that the Lord has brought me to this place. Every day is a new lesson in trusting Him, and I am so excited to see what He will do during my time at EBC. I think everyone should come join me :)
First class was Tuesday morning, and it was a Theology class. This class will cover the topics of Christology, Salvation, and Man/Evil/Sin. One of our assignments each week is to reflect on what we've learned about the gospel that week, and how have we struggled to live that out in our lives. I had something that I've been chewing on, but at the end of class, my professor asked us to share some things we might write about. This guy raised his hand and said "the hope found in the fact that Jesus sustains all things." When I heard that, I almost started weeping in class. We took some time to just be quiet and think about that truth, and it was AWESOME, and eye-opening, to see how I don't really believe that He truly does sustain all things. I've been thinking about that ALL week.
Next, Old Testament Survey, part 2. I know, I never took part 1. But anyway, we went over Job. It was AWESOME. We talked about how Job does not answer WHY suffering happens, but points to the response of the righteous man: know the greatness of God. So beautiful.
Bible Study Methods was Thursday. This class is very foundational, so I have to say I'm least excited about it. I've also audited it, so I am semi-familiar with the content. But I look foward to really learning how to study scripture, and to see how much I don't know.
Last, Old Testament Backgrounds. This class is going to KILL ME, but I am STOKED. We don't really have any papers, but a lot of creative projects. We have to read a TON of history books, make artifacts, eat meals with people from the middle-east...so cool. But my favorite part of this class is that we have to pray every day, for at least ten minutes, and then write a little summary each week about what the Lord has taught us through our times of prayer. I've been doing that for 3 days now, and I have really seen through my prayers how I really am struggling with the truth I learned in Theology (it all comes full circle!)
I am so grateful that the Lord has brought me to this place. Every day is a new lesson in trusting Him, and I am so excited to see what He will do during my time at EBC. I think everyone should come join me :)
Sunday, January 3, 2010
nashville highlights.
-getting a tattoo. a dove on the inside of my left arm. i love it.
-playing ping pong/shuffle board while drinking beer.
-fantastic mr. fox. such a good movie.
-ringing in 2010 with charlotte friends (is that an epic poem? i think so.)
-eating fancy mexican popsicles.
-KARAOKE. it was so ridiculous. i can't even begin to describe it.
-picked out my dream boots, they were about $4 billion. or, $357.
all those things were great, but the highlight was just being able to hang out with my BFF for 7 days.
see you tomorrow, los angeles.
-playing ping pong/shuffle board while drinking beer.
-fantastic mr. fox. such a good movie.
-ringing in 2010 with charlotte friends (is that an epic poem? i think so.)
-eating fancy mexican popsicles.
-KARAOKE. it was so ridiculous. i can't even begin to describe it.
-picked out my dream boots, they were about $4 billion. or, $357.
all those things were great, but the highlight was just being able to hang out with my BFF for 7 days.
see you tomorrow, los angeles.
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