Monday, June 9, 2008

this.

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

the deodorant aisle.

i'm going to let you in on a little secret (no, that was not a pun).
i really hate the deodorant aisle.
there really shouldn't be so many choices.  the thing is, every time i buy deodorant, i'm usually not satisfied.  so when it comes time for a new stick, i want something different.  its not like shampoo where you can go with what worked.  it never works/smells like you had hoped.  for instance, i've been on a lavender kick, so i bought french lavender scent last time. note to secret: lavender does not smell like fruit.  but i digress.
there is too much to process. do i want clear?  soft solid?  clear soft solid?  regular stick? all-natural?  with baking soda?  prescription strength?  and thats not even counting the smells.  do i want fruit or flower?  certainly not powder. EW. (ps.  who in the world thought "hey i know of a good deodorant smell - vanilla chai!"  seriously?). 
i also saw this stick that is a crystal that you can use on your armpits or your feet (what?  who would do that?) and it promises to get rid of odor, and last for a year.  tempting, but no thanks.
my dream?  that body odor was not a reality.  then i wouldn't have to buy deodorant, and be faced with the overwhelming task of choosing the "right" one, only to have to do it all over again 3 months later.

the end.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

encouraged by love.

today, as i was meeting with my boss, i just felt overwhelmed with love for God.  and not because of any particular thing thats going on, or anything i'm learning or whatever.  i just felt so...full of gratitude, and just really thankful for everything.  particularly the people i have in my life.  
so many of my friends this week have randomly decided to tell me that they care for me.  to be honest, its hard for me to hear/accept what they say.  because i'm so hard on myself all the time, rarely do i think that i'm worth loving (which is horrifying, i know, and one of the lies that i am diligently battling!).  but this week, hearing those words, they just made me cry, because what they say of me pales in comparison to the love God has for me.  
in addition, there are certain friends i have that make me want to love jesus more.  seeing how my friends make decisions, how they shun the ways of the world in pursuit of christ just blows me away.  i just feel so incredibly blessed to have friends that are little reflections of jesus.  
man, being a follower of christ is great.  even when life gets hard, or i have to deny myself, without hope in jesus, my life has no meaning.  i'm so thankful that He loves me. 
:)

Sunday, June 1, 2008

the perfect day.

talking with my best friend this morning, i realized how much i have changed.

god has somehow done the miraculous in my heart and enabled me to ENJOY being alone.  imagine that.  

this weekend, my house has been quiet.  just me, a good book, a coffee pot...it has been so good.  this morning, i went for a run, watered the flowers, sat on my patio eating strawberries.  and it was literally the most perfect morning.  the sun is shining and the sky is blue.  and i played my guitar and sang some songs in chinese, and it was so great.  i don't even speak chinese!  but it made my heart so happy.  and my coffee mug had white polka dots.  bonus.  seriously, that is what makes a day perfect...when it starts out like that, and ends with good friends.  

i love my life.  i am so blessed.  not because i have stuff. but because He has rescued me from darkness and brought me into Glorious Light.  mmmmmmm!  

i am happy :)